Beauty From Ashes

The Story of Lisa Reimer

I grew up in a Christian home, went to church my whole life, and attended a private Christian school from K-12. When it came to head knowledge of God and Christianity, I knew it all. My problem was that I had a twisted view of who God really was, and it became obvious when times got rough. 

There was this constant presence in my life drawing me to darkness. I found ways of punishing myself, whether it was starving myself, cutting, or throwing myself at boys who just needed a girl to mess around with.

For most of my entire life, I had a crippling anxiety disorder and panic attacks that would last anywhere between fifteen minutes and a couple of weeks. It was pure misery. As I got older, my panic attacks got worse, and my trust in God decreased rapidly. During this time my brother’s wife was diagnosed with cancer. She passed away at the age of 27 after several years of battling for her life. By that point, I had my arms full of distractions to keep my heart away from the pain and my extreme anger towards myself, the world, and God.

I hated being alive. I didn’t trust God at all and most of all, I hated myself.

There was this constant presence in my life drawing me to darkness. I found ways of punishing myself, whether it was starving myself, cutting, or throwing myself at boys who just needed a girl to mess around with. All the while, i was trying to keep up the appearance of being a happy healthy Christian. My family (myself included) were all in church leadership. I hated being alive. I didn’t trust God at all and most of all, I hated myself.

Right after graduating high school, I was accepted into a girl’s recovery home in Louisiana. My eating disorder and drinking had gotten out of control and I spent six months in Louisiana getting healthy again and doing a lot of prayer counseling. I changed a lot and came back home significantly more peaceful and joyful.

Unfortunately, the program had very little after-care and I went right back home into the same situation as before. It didn’t take long for me to start drinking to escape. I planned to go to school, but a very unhealthy relationship got in the way. I essentially gave up on all the dreams I had, shut down my heart, and settled for a boring, miserable life. However, through everything going on, God was trying to win me over. I could never completely shut His voice out or get rid of this feeling deep in my heart that He had an incredible plan for me that I wouldn’t want to miss out on.

The first step happened in February of 2012. My brother had attended the School of Ministry in Toronto and really loved it. I had a conversation with a friend in the church kitchen one night and realized I had to try it! Two weeks later, I was in Toronto. Everything changed from there. I arrived an absolute mess. I was bitter and heartbroken from a recent (almost) engagement being broken off because of my choice to go to school. Transformation happened.  

Jesus rescued me from the life I had been living and gave me real hope for the first time in my life.

Jesus rescued me from the life I had been living and gave me real hope for the first time in my life. They asked me to come back as a small group leader. More transformation happened. It was during that second semester that I first met Geordie and Stefanie Mumby and got to visit the Father’s House Church.

I’m convinced Geordie and Stefanie were placed in my life by God to save me. I was blown away by what I saw in Oroville! I knew that I would be back eventually, but I first wanted to follow my own plan for my life. I left the School of Ministry in Toronto and I left everything that had made me successful. I went right back into my old habits; drinking, hating myself and giving up on all my dreams.

The good news is that Jesus still wasn’t giving up on me.

He drew me back to Oroville, California. It was the place where I knew I could be changed and never look back. It was the place I knew I could not hide. I arrived in Oroville a bigger mess than the first time, but was greeted with love and grace and I knew I had to stay.

I’m now doing the internship here and experiencing life in a way I never have before. I talk to Jesus all the time and really love being in relationship with Him. I’ve handed over my old habits that were destroying me. I trust leaders - and that’s also something I’ve never done. Being in the Catch the Fire School of Ministry Oroville gave me back the power to choose something better and to go after it with all my heart. It tore down the walls I had put up and transformed the broken heart underneath. I am incredibly grateful for this opportunity and for the people who have loved me through some of the worst days of my life. I’m getting my life back and plan to use it to bless the people around me!

 

Typical Pastor's Kid

Typical Pastor's Kid

I knew there was more to life then the way I had been living and the church I attended felt more like a country club for saints than a hospital for sinners. It felt shallow and wanted something different. I ended up going to TFHC in early 2007 on a Wednesday night service with my friend. Up to this point in my life I had always gone to church and ”believed.” That night I felt the Presence of the Lord like I had never experienced before and I thought to myself, there is something real about that place. I started attending shortly thereafter. I was still living the same way but the message of Jesus' words actually made me start to actually listen for the first time in my life

Abandoned

Abandoned

My mother would read my palms and tell me I was going to die young. She would constantly put me down, beat and burn me when she got mad. I never talked to her. I wasn't allowed to talk to her. When people were around she would talk to me and pretend to be proud of me. She would list all of my achievements and brag about me. She would even HUG me! It was so strange to me. I felt lie we were in the theater acting so people thought everything was okay. 

From Rockstar to Disciple

From Rockstar to Disciple

 Jesus was really working on my heart and I eventually quit my band.  I gave up the chance to make it as a full time touring metal band to go after Jesus.  I soon after quit my job as well so I could put my full focus on Jesus and go to Catch the Fire School of Love.  I am now a full time, intern that works in the kids/youth department and I LOVE IT!  Following Men that Follow Jesus like Steve Orsillo and Derek Devine, has been the best thing for me.  That’s my story and I am sticking to it!